Abeer’s Blog

It has been long time since I heard anything about her.. The last thing I heard that she was finishing her studies to become a pilot… Just like she wanted!

I remember our conversation five years ago, she was to choose between arts and scientific Tawjihi branches… that’s when she told me about her dream… to become a pilot!!

She was a strong and determined person for following her dream! two days ago she graduated as a pilot…
Just like she wanted!!

Yesterday she died in a plane crash…

May God rest her soul in peace!

Actually it’s my second week, but it’s my first week with the new room and room-mate. And here’s the evaluation:

The Room:
It’s so small but cozy. The heating system sucks and the orange-painted walls get me nervous somehow but the furniture is nice and green .

The TV is hanged too high that my nick hurts when I try to watch it when sitting.. it’s in a perfect position when I’m laying on the bed though. Emmm I love the kitchen corner! My least favorite thing in my room is the bathroom it’s uncomfortably small and it’s dull!

The Room-mate:

She wakes my up everyday in her sweet special way “on the sound of the hair-drier” just in time to get dressed and head to university! I’m pretty sure she won’t poison my food! And inshallah we there will be no “shad sha3ar” fights between us! On the contrast, she made me feel welcomed in every way possible! And she cheered me up yesterday when I was down. And by the way she studies all the time “she’s a JUST student” so it’s almost impossible for me not to open my books everyday even if I was just looking at the pictures! But she knows how to have fun too when she finishes her studying J

The Dorm’s Environment:

I didn’t like it at first, but I’ll get used to it.. I thought the girls would be more sociable!

Two days ago I entered the elevator with a smile and greeted everyone.. only one girl smiled back without saying a word while the rest kept staring!! It was a long silent moment!

Missing Home:
I didn’t get used to sleeping in that bed yet, and when I wake up every morning I get this feeling that I’m in a strange place and it takes me a while to remember where exactly am I!

I miss my room! I miss waking up on my Dad’s voice! I miss my dad! L I miss my mom! I really miss Mama! I miss your cooking! “even bamya”! I miss Isam! I miss talking to you brother!! I miss you “not listening” on my pointless stories! I miss spending hours in your room just sitting and enjoying my time doing nothing! I miss Imad! I miss the rare and few moments we share with each other! I miss answering the phone in my house! I miss my brother’s room! I miss the kitchen! I miss the fridge! I miss the living room! I miss the vase in our living room “don’t ask me why”! I miss my neighbor Lana! I miss exchanging clothes with her! And I miss our chats at the door that last for hours! And I miss my friends Mais, Ola, Haya, Noor and all of you guys! I miss hanging out with you! And I miss spending hours on the phone with you girls! I miss my Aunt and Uncle! I miss my cousins too!

Even if I don’t see these people for weeks when I’m in Amman, but I really miss all of them!

I even miss Marj el Hamam and that bloody butcher! My eyes are getting teary now! i’m only 86 km away from my home! “msh mestahleh”!

Aaaaah i can’t wait for tomorrow to come so i can get back to home!

I know you’re sick of the word cartoon but wait I want to talk about a different kind Of cartoons!

As a child this was my favorite cartoon…

“Lady Lady”

It’s about an innocent little girl “Leen Rassel” who is trying to have a normal life with her older sister “Sarah” that didn’t like her at first because she’s from a different mother.. and their friends “Arther and Edward”… and of course her horse “Andrus”.

The plot was that everybody in this cartoon hated Leen for one reason or a another… besides she had to struggle with her feeling of guilt because her mother died trying to save her in the car accident!

I used to love this cartoon.. and i was so attached to it that i used to cry when Leen cries, i wanted to have a horse like Leen did, I felt guilty about everything went wrong because of her in that cartoon… i even remember that Edward was my first crush!

The reason i’m writing this post is that i found out that they’re showing this cartoon on JTV at 13:10 GMT !!! I was telling my friends and it seemed that it’s their favorite cartoon too…

and for those who prefer “Sally” cartoon… you can watch it at Sama Dubai at teh same time.

Being a student in Yarmook University “which is in Irbid” while i still live in Amman for this semester is harder than i thought it would be!! it’s like a challenge to be there on time everyday “especially on Sundays”!!
and even if i was lucky enough and got a ticket on an early bus… I still have to hold my breath! sometimes the bus breaks down on our way.. or maybe the driver is so sleepy that he’s driving under 60 km/hour… or maybe sometimes it’s just bad weather conditions!!
but even in the best cases it still takes me up to 4 hours everyday from and to the university!! and i come home feeling notious, tired ,and not in a very good mood.. not willing to study..i just want to sit back and relax!

So I thought about living in a dorm in Irbid.. that would be more comfortabe for me and it would save me some time…

Since I didn’t meet any Yarmouk student living in a dorm… my friends from JUST recomended the dorm they are staying in.. i was told it was one of the best.. so i went there… took a look.. liked what i saw! registered and paid for the second semester!!!

I didn’t ask other people about that dorm before registering… i didn’t ask about other dorms either.. i simply registered and paid!!

Now the big and misterious part will be “MY ROOM-MATE”!!! i don’t really know her.. i only met her once.. she seemed nice! but is she nice enough?!

Living in a dorm away from my family will not be easy… my brother expects that i will become a careless person “hamleh” and my grades will fall… my friends are worried that this experience will take me away from them… my cousin warned me from sharing food and water with my room-mate “she had her reasons”… and many people told me that i should’ve asked about this room-mate and i shouldn’t have agreed on her…

But hey!! look at the bright side!! i will save more energy for studying “don’t look at me like that.. i WILL study more!”… and i’ll learn how to be independent and responsible since i’m gonna have to prepare my own meals and clean my room! and i will spend more time in Irbid and discover the beuty of another Jordanian city!

So it’s been a month since i bought my first pan, cutting board, and cooking pot! i’m so excited i started packing weekss ago! Yesterday my mom prepared me some pickles, makdoos, and jam “marmalade” jars.

I know i’m going to miss my family.. but i want to miss them!! that will remind me how much i need them!! after all it’s an experience! and it’s not like i’m moving there for good!! i shouldn’t panic!! I will take care of myself and i will not turn into a “hamleh”! i will study hard! and i will stay in touch with my friends!!! my nice room-mate will not try to put poison in my food!! i will be just fine inshallah! no need to worry! right?!